Chinese Bride
Part III

It seems so right to be with him. But still, I m not ready to take the next step. I have lots to think, and I am still holding my own rules. No bed until we know each other furthermore. I tell him that I am having my period for a reason. So he back off. What we have now is merely lust, and I don't want to have one night stand. He understands, and sternly he looks at me.
"If you are willing for bed, I will crush your heart. Because I also have the same rules. Let's see if we can have proper introduction and start our relationship from there."
We spend the rest of that night back in the pool deck. See the sunrise together, and talking about our past. We both know that we have our own jobs that mostly will separating us. He will be busy with his 32 shows in various cities, while I will have to take care of my business. Nearly seven o'clock I am going back home. And my mom already called me for dozen times. I call her while I'm in the taxi, and say that I will be home in few minutes. I have message from Kun Ge as I call him now, only one icon of sleepy face. I reply with the same icon.

Next day, I invite him to go for Sora for another bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon. My Gastro Pub regularly have some artists coming for drinks and foods. So when he comes there is no commotion, besides tonight we are packed. I choose to have one of the private rooms as the main hall is screening soccer game. It is so usual during Saturday's and Sunday's nights to have sports game. Mostly soccer, even sometimes tennis and baseball also take place. Defying the definition of pure Gastro Pub, I also have several rooms to accommodate private conversation. I already order few foods and the wine. We spend few hours through foods and two bottles of Cabernet with talking more about our life. He invites me to come to Beijing for few days when we can match our schedules. He has more restraining agenda, so I know it will be me who has to follow his. I put his timetable into my iPad and browse my own. Find five days I can squeeze, inside. And make promise that I will come on that day. Tonight is his last in Seoul and tomorrow he will be back to Beijing. Time flies, unaware that at one am this place already close. Bringing back those plates, bottles and glasses we are exiting the room.
"Chef, OC already." My manager says while Kun Ge taking his wallet out. OC means they will deduct my account and I just need to sign the bill.

We say our goodbye in front of the hotel. I tell him to call me before his flight tomorrow. Then I go. Still inside the taxi, he calls. Singing two verses of his newest song. I laugh all the way back. At home, my parents are still awake. Waiting for me.
"Where have you been for two nights in a row?" My father asks when I had sit in front of them.
"Meet my boyfriend."
"Do we know him?" My mother asks. I explain who he is. Maybe it will be hard for them to accept him as my family from different background. My father is banker, while my mom is an attorney. My brother is soon taking over my father's role while my sister is an architect. Besides he is from China while I am here in Korea. I don't even know if our relationship will last so I take little step at a time.
It's still new, still vague.
"Are both of you thinking to be married?" This question is the one I dreaded most.
"Dad, Mom. This I don't know. We haven't talk that far. Yes, I promise to visit him next month on fifth. Marriage is still far away I think." Defensively I try to placate them not to think further.

In bed, I am still thinking on how to deal with these feelings I have inside. One part I really want to be with him, while the other part I don't want to loose everything I have. When I can't sleep I always end up in front of my desk creating new menus. But not tonight. I put his music on with my iPod and listening to his voice through headphones while I am soaking my body inside warm bath. One thing that nobody knows. I am still a virgin. My previous two boyfriends never laid hands on me. That's the reason they left. I want to have my first with someone I really want to. And I have come to the decision that it will be Kun Ge. I want to know his reaction if he finds that I am untouched. Suddenly my phone beeping. A message from Kun Ge. He cancelled his flight tomorrow and he asks if it's possible to meet my parents. I jolt from the tub, and grabbing my towel, I start to dial his number.
On second tone dial he answers.
"I am not going back to Beijing before I can secure the future with you. Be ready and wait for me tomorrow."

Continue to part IV.