Chinese Bride

Part IX

I have to move to other room while my own is being set up to accommodate two people. And since my brother's room is vacant, my sister designed to joining those rooms. With additional space, I can have the study room I really long for. I already choose the new furnitures and next week they will finish it. Every morning I call Mujin. Talking about many things. Planning about the wedding. My mom already busied herself trying to figure out what kind of wedding I need to have. I am still thinking on my projects. Seeing Jeon very carefully, and teach him how to deal with many things. Then the invitation come. On the very same day with my wedding day I need to attend the restaurateur awards. A yearly event to congratulate the best in categories. Personally I was nominated for two awards, one for best chef and the other for best black box competition. The best chef is for the bistro type of restaurant while the black box is the one when the committee brought one box of ingredients, and the chef need to cook on the spot on that day. RSVP, I check on the box saying no. I am not going to waging war with Kun Ge or our families. 

My parents want to have a big wedding for me. With more than 300 hundreds invitations. I want to have smaller. But they vetoed my choice. I am the youngest, so my parents need to have a big one as a sign for closure. No more wedding afterward. Besides, they want to show that finally I am the one branded as spinster will be married with someone rich and famous. I have a godfather. My father closest friend. I used to be his private chef when he is having fishing trip. Two days on the weekends. Once every two months. When he hears that I am about to be married, he send me a gift. A pair of expensive watches, and a set of diamonds jewelry. With invitation to have dinner together for Kun Ge and I. I was invited for a talkshow together with Kun Ge in Beijing. But I declined. I am not celebrity.  Then one magazine contacted me to have my wedding featured in their bi monthly wedding section. I declined as well. I don't want my life be scrutinized. I am not that kind of person. One day, they will know me. But not under so many flashlights. I don't think that being married with Kun Ge will bring me too many headaches. I prefer to have another restaurant to be open rather than this. 

On the wedding day. After eight weeks of preparation.

I don't know, but lately I feel that I am so easily to get tired. I lost my appetite. And I also miss my last month period. I used to have irregular menses. Because of stress, because of tiredness. And right after I was proposed, suddenly poof. I stop drinking and smoking. That is my promise to myself. But today, on this very important day I feel that I can't stand anymore. I feel that I have no power even to lift my arms. But the red qipao and the matching shoes are waiting. Along with my groom. I put my light make up on, and try to wear my wedding dress. As per our agreement before, this is only for signing papers and few pictures to be taken for the press. Then family dinner afterward. I try my best to look better, and to conceal my fatigue. I do everything quite smoothly until the last minutes. But when the door for press conference at one of the hotel was closed, I fainted. Lucky Ken Ge ready to receive my lifeless body before reaching the floor. Using the service elevator he brings me upstairs to my room. Our families are already waiting at that suite to have a little drinks before dinner, but when they see Kun Ge carries me they start to worry. My sister in law is a doctor. And she starts to check on me. Kun Ge offering me a glass of water but after taking one sip, I almost run to the bathroom. I vomit. Kun Ge follows me to the bathroom and helping me. When we emerge from bathroom after fifteen minutes, our families are laughing and grinning. Mujin brings me to her embrace. And my mom pat my hair. 

"Tomorrow morning check your urine." My sister in law tells me while handling me a test pack. I just look at Kun Ge face. 

Holding hands, Kun Ge and I waiting for the result from the test pack. Two lines. A pregnant bride. I grin to him. So, here we are. Two future parents. We opt to skip breakfast to go to hospital. Need further checking. The waiting seems hours but actually it is only ten minutes before the doctor meet
us. After checking my urine one more time with blood test the results are the same. Calculating the last period I had, the doctor tells that I conceive for six weeks. Then by sonogram we can see two
little dots. Not only one. I am going to have a pair of fraternal twin. Back in the hotel, I show the picture to Mujin and my mom. I feel that I need to readjust my life again. Being a bride, not yet a
wife. Then without further ado need to prepare myself being a mother of two. How can this happen, I am consider a hopeless person. Never think that I will be able to conceive only few weeks after loosing my virginity. Poof, suddenly a bride. Boom, next is being a mother. Our plan is not to wait for  having baby, considering our age. But this instance? I feel the urge to turn back the clock, and reconsider to have safer sex with him. It is not that I am not happy, but I also feel the urge to turn back the clock and take the other way around.